Alone

 
No one can hear me cry out into the bleak.
I cry and fight, my fingernails scraping for blood.
I want out, so bad the hot tears cascade down.
But in this darkness, from where I sit alone,
No one can hear me.

I draw back into myself, where I hide from all.
I dwell in my soul, where screams ravage my mind.
Can I be expected to live in such confinements?
But the trustee of my soul left... threw away the key.
And so.. I draw back further.

Some try to pry and poke and 'understand' me.
To whom shall we thank for these psychic mind-breakers?
These pestilences annoy me tirelessly, oh god I'm so tired.
But I live alone and sick, there is no cure.
I'm so labeled, stay Away.

In ordinance and self control I describe to viewers:
"Go away demons! Go away and leave me be!"
Ah, the viewers, their cold bottomless stares bore into me deep.
But they stare on, relentless to make my blood curdle.
So I try and run...No use... Too Late.

No one heard me crying out into the dark.
I wanted out, but no one heard me.
The darkness has sinced become me.
Go away. I'm supposed be Alone.
It, this... what I am, is my Destiny.

By Lisa "Tressie" Stevens
November 18, 1996

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